My husband of 18 years just recently told me that he had an affair with a co-worker (Removed). They had sex 3 times. The first time was New Year’s Eve, when the office closed early. They went to a motel by their office and rented a room because her son (removed), was home at the time. It was your typical, cheesy, tasteless romp in a seedy motel. Shortly after New Year’s, my husband sexted a cell phone picture of himself to her in the mirror with just a t-shirt on. I’m sure he got himself all stroked and hard for that picture. She sexted him 2 pictures of herself, one full length of herself naked in her mirror and the 2nd picture was of her bald p**sy with her legs straight up in the air. He confessed to masturbating to the pictures while he was going to the bathroom. Sick!The 2nd time they had sex was in the back of her car near a fishing hole on the river that my husband fishes from. The 3rd time happened in early February at her house when (removed) was at a Boy Scout meeting.The flirting had started about October when I was at the sickest time of my life, while I was starting a new medication for treating my Multiple Sclerosis. Talk about another form of betrayal, him doing this while I was puking and craping my guts out for 2 whole months from the side effects of this Rx??!!!! He broke it off with her about February 10th, when she came up to his counter on her way out. He told her “We can’t do this anymore” and she got teary eyed and left. He got her a balloon and some red roses for Valentine’s Day, with no card. She asked him if they were from him and he affirmed it. Cheesy, tasteless, flowers and a balloon after he ended the affair??? Ugh! He said he felt like it was expected of him to get her a V-day gift. WHAT THE HECK??!!! He doesn’t owe her a damn thing! I got 3 boxes of candy for Valentine’s Day. He says I am getting a bit heavy set, but he buys me candy??I told him I wanted to scream, curse and punch him. He told me to punch him so I did, 3 times. He was bleeding from his nose and his mouth. My wedding ring cut him up and left a big ugly scab under his nose and on the corners of his mouth. I couldn’t punch him anymore after that even though he told me to. I told him that his many apologies were not enough at the time and that he was going to have to literally show me he was repenting. I told him to leave the room.He came back in about 15 minutes later crying with his .45, loaded with one in the chamber and with a full magazine in it. He said he didn’t want to live anymore and that he wanted me to kill him. I told him that if I did that, I was going to load myself up on sleeping pills and die with him. I asked him how that would make him feel. He said “I’m already dead, I wouldn’t know about it.”. I said, “Think about it now, you now have the burden on your shoulders knowing that if you are dead, I will follow you shortly after. If you kill yourself or if I kill you, you are also killing me, it will be death by Murder, Suicide or it will be death by Suicide, Suicide.”. Then I took the gun from him and put it against my temple to show him what it felt like. He grabbed the gun away from me. I told him to put the damn gun away, get it out of sight. He cried all night, sobbing from the black depths of his soul. I comforted him for a bit and started praying, whispering my prayers and then loud enough for him to hear it. It started calming me down and I started feeling peace. God was working with me and I asked him to work with my husband. I told him to go lie down and pray. Pray, pray and pray. I joined him in the bedroom about 10 minutes later. He was sobbing in the dark. I asked him if praying was helping and he said not yet, that he doesn’t deserve any forgiveness and that he doesn’t deserve me comforting him. He needed to wallow with his self pity and despair for what he’s done. I let him sob for a long while then I told him to keep praying and to not wallow in self pity for too long.After he told me that it was 3 times and at various locations, it was a lot for me to process because his first answer when he first confessed wasn’t truthful. After absorbing this new information, I started becoming overcome with rage. The original shell shock when I first found out about the affair on Feb. 20th had worn off, so this new information sent me into this unfathomable rage. Then I asked him if there was anything else that he had left out, he said no, that was absolutely everything. I asked him about 5 more times is there anything else?? (each time I asked him that question was more intensely). He said no. About 15 minutes later, I asked him again, and he said oh yeah, I got her flowers and a balloon for V-day and that started another series of questions. He once again assured me that was all the information he had.Hahahaha, joke’s on me because about 20 minutes later, he said there might be evidence on her cell phone and then he told me about the sexting that was done as I have mentioned above. I blew up and left the room because he left out all this important information the 1st time. He then followed me into the room and told me that that was truly everything. I just looked at him with disgust and told him I couldn’t believe a damn word he said and I laughed at him, so when he said that was truly everything, I just said that is what you said after you originally told me it was only 2 times and letting me believe it was at her house both times. And that is what you said again after you told me you got her a V-day roses and balloon. And then, that what you said AGAIN after you told me you two sexted each other. There was no way I could believe a damn word out of his mouth after that. No way. He knew that and once again claimed that that was absolutely everything. I just laughed at him and told him to leave the room. That was right before he brought in the gun as mentioned previously.I walked into the office last week and she smirked at me when she saw me, her body language told me that she knew that I knew what she had done and like the sociopath that she is, she expressed NO shame. She clearly has NO morals and has NO inhibitions. I told her that she has some consequences to pay. All contact must be severed and that she must leave the company. My husband has worked at the company for 10 years and she is just a receptionist that has only worked there for 1 year. I’m sorry to say this, but a monkey can do her job, as she is easily expendable. I thought I was being very generous here and it was far kinder than what she deserved.She refused to quit, so then I told her that now my gloves have come off and proceeded to tell her how I plan on breaking her mentally. It will not involve any physical harm to her in any way, so we can rest assured that any action taken is perfectly legal. I started disclosing to her the personal details about the affair so that she knew that I knew everything. I didn’t get very far when she pushed me to get past me so that she could run away like the coward that she is. Because she pushed me first, I then gave her my mean left hook and gave her a black eye. I am right handed, but my right side is paralyzed due to my M.S., so it felt good to clock her with my non dominant hand. Even though she pushed me first, the company’s boss decided to exile me from setting foot into the building again. Sadly, she still hasn’t quit.Believe it or not, my marriage is now better than ever because of this tragedy. We are closer than ever and with the help of church counseling and our faith, I truly believe we will push past this ugliness. I am still consumed with revengeful thoughts, but I feel that my healing process can only begin to gain closure if I can get her to leave. I am trying to put all my faith into God’s word that states”Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” : Romans 12:19.I need a lot of time……, time to heal, time to forgive and time to move forward, but it is not helping knowing that she is still working at the office. I would appreciate any advice and prayers that you readers would care to share with me.